The previous blog is about my truth love :')
I never lie.
Actually, through my life until now, scha de dua orang yang scha sayang and cinta sangat-sangat tinggalkan scha. I always remember them until now :')
What matters happen, they has been my sunshine in my life before. Al-Fatihah :)
Before arwah Aliff Adam, 3years ago i'm in love with Adam. The handsome young boy, he was 2years older than me. He loves singing, and the favourite song of him is Izinkan Ku Pergi, by Kaer AF....
Everyday, he will laugh for me. Smile for me. Text love for me.
Everything is in my memories :')
Tapi, tiap-tiap hari dia mengadu pada scha yang dia sakit kepala. Bagi scha, perhaps itu sakit kepala biase je kan or migrain. We always be happy together but semua tuu tak lame.
One day...
Dy pengsan. Yes, he is. Adik dy, Yana yg bagitahu scha............
ape yang scha fikir mase tu just dy pengsan sebap dy pening. i'm waiting for his message. i'm too missing him :')
tak lame lepas tuu, scha dapat mecej dy. mase tu, scha senyum dapat mecej dy. Alhamdulillah, everything is gonna be fine :)
Hai ma :)
Hai. How are you?
Fine sayang. Ma, pa ade something nak cakap
Yes, ape diye? Doctor cakap ape tadi?
Ma, pa tanak ma nangis taw sayang.
Hurm, kenape nak nangis?
Pa ade kanser otak.
Mesej tuuu. It was painfull. I can't stop crying that night. Scha takan pernah lupe ape yang jadi, sebap ini kisah hidup scha :')
Since hari tuu, dy kerap pengsan. pening. sampai satu malam tuu, dy nangis kol scha sebap kepale dy sakit sangat. #when i close my eyes now, suare dy nangis still terngiang-ngiang di telinga scha...
Iloveyouuu too much :')
Tengahri tuu, lepas scha balik sekolah, macam biase i will call him but no answer. I'm waiting his text.
Awak, saye tunggu mesej awak. tapi awak tak reply. Maybe awak tidur kan sayang? Awak lemah sngat biler awak sakit. Tiba-tiba adik awak mecej saye. "kakak, abang adam dah tak ade. dia baru selamat dikebumikan"
Awakkkk, ape nie? kenape layan saye mcm nie? Malam semalam, awak ketawa tapi kenapa hari ni awak diam... Sayu hati saye awak. saye tak dapat lihat awak tenang dalam tidur awak. buat kali terakhir, saye hanya nampak tanah awak. awak, saye rindu suare awak :')
Adam, seminggu scha demam sebap adam. dekat sekolah, scha asyik nangis ingat adam. suare adam. gelak ketawa adam. wajah adam. ade dalam hati scha :)
Last words from him before arwah meninggal dunia..
Ma, pa nak ma dengar lagu Izinkan Ku Pergi biler pa dah tak ade nanti. Pa sayang dan cintakan ma sangat-sangat. Pa tak nak ma nangis biler pa dah tak ada nanti. Sentiasa senyum untuk pa dan rindukan pa. Pa akan sentiasa rindukan ma....
Autumn is just like my love stories...
scha terlalu tabah hadapi semua nie. kehilangan orang yang scha sayang amat menyakitkan. sampai sekarang, dua insan ini masih dalam hati scha. Arwah Aliff dan arwah Adam, dua lelaki yang pernah mewarnai hari-hari scha. berkongsi satu perasaan yang sama. tapi Allah S.W.T lebih menyayangi mereka berdua. Semoga roh mereka dicucuri rahmat dan tenang di sana :)
AL-Fatihah
